Three days without booze and I am feeling a bit better. Still exhausted though, which worries me. I need to not have alcohol in my home anymore. I will binge on it like I binge on crackers and chips. I'm not allowed to have those in my house anymore either. I don't binge on sweets but absolutely salty, carby stuff and alcohol. This will save me money and save my life I hope.
I am more and more determined to go back to TX for a couple years. I hate this feeling of drowning in my debt and NYC is kind of bumming me out right now anyway. A two-year vacation from this place sounds lovely. I'll save so much money, enjoy the weather and generally live a better life, minus the hell that is conservative America. But at least Austin and San Antonio aren't terrible conservative hellholes.
I have worked out the past two days and that makes me feel sore and good. I have a sex date tomorrow and a little mini high school reunion on Saturday. My social like is doing OK, so now I need my finances to follow suit! I need to look into my freelance work that isn't bullshit like the last project I did. I quit that one because they lied and harassed me throughout. Lied about the amount of work (I bid on something 40 times smaller --finding 500 records versus 19,600) and they complained that it cost more and was taking too long. I told them the truth, finished the one section and said I was done working on it.
I have gross guys contacting me on OKCupid. One guy is repulsive and won't take a hint and leave me alone. Silence doesn't mean I want to start texting you. It means I don't like you gross guy. Ugh, whatever.
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