Oh my goodness, I am so tired. It's starting to scare me. I sleep for hours and I am still so tired. I am pushing through it. I won't drink all week, and I will work out and eat right. Each day I accomplish this, is a day closer to being myself again. I cannot lose myself any further. It makes me so sad to have all of this potential and to hate myself so much.
I think in two years I am going to move back to Texas for a while. I am so broke and I could catch up on my debt in just a couple years back home. Then I can move back and be almost debt-free. And I can keep my job as well. This city depresses me sometimes.
I am not as lonely as I have been. I have people who like me and want to hang out with me. But I don't have someone to love. It's so hard to find that here. I think I need to open my heart and my mind and look outside my comfort zone.
I want to sleep for weeks.
I am so fat that I want to choke myself.
10:12 a.m. - 2015-07-08
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