I am drowning in depression. I hate my job so much. My boss threatened my job and told me he could hurt me if he really wanted to (emotionally.) For once I have it on tape (phone.) My best friend was disgusted but my mom took his side. Just like she did when my dad sat on my chest and choked the living shit out of me. Typical pathetic mother.
I have applied for a hundred jobs. Nothing but rejections and silence. I cry all the time. I dream of suicide. I can't be here anymore.
I have gotten so fat that I make myself sick. I cannot fit into my clothes.
I drank so much on my bday that I peed someone's couch. I am ashamed. I am alone. I have stopped drinking for now though. because I drink so much that I could die at any time.
Nothing is right.
2:42 p.m. - 2015-11-05
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