I gained 10 pounds in one day after my breakdown this weekend. Actually more because when I finally weighed myself last night I was 150.2. This morning I was 146.8. I am swollen everywhere.
I am tired and overworked and depressed. Nothing new there.
I have homework to finish. I have to type it so at least I've written most of it.
At this point I don't care how well I do as long as I pass. I'm getting to NYU. I won't be working full-time. I won't have to transfer these grades anyway so I'm not sure why i am trying so hard. I will get an A in my other class. I can transfer the 3 A's and start over with a perfect GPA. It's weird that I knew this but it never occurred to me until right now. The class I am stressing about. Means nothing as long as I get no lower than a B-. Which I won't because I have an A now and 3 assignments left, 2 of which i can rewrite for a higher grade.
I'm out of here.
Fuck this town.
It is pssing me off. Stop pressuring me and leave me be. If I fail, let me fail. Do not deride me and force me to have special meetings and waste more of my fukcing time where you can tell me how disappointed you are and blah blah blah make me feel like shit because U am not perfect. I don't care about your class. Do not try to make me feel bad for doing the best that I could. Meetings and wasting of my time does nothing but make me hate you and your class more. LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!!
I really fucking hate everyone in this city. It's so hot that I want to punch someone.
8:23 a.m. - 2011-04-19
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