It hurts when I turn my head to the right. A sharp pulling pain. It must be related to the cuts I have on my face. Very curious.
I hate everyone around me. Because last month my idiot coworkers used the wrong link and didn't check it I am getting blamed and told to check all links. Which I already do. Hence me catching their mistake.
My moronic professor actually expects me to QUIT MY JOB so I can have more time to dedicate to his class. He is such a fucking jackass I can't even stand it. He punishes me for being "smart" so I am not allowed to make a mistake ever and how dare I not be perfect? I am a terrible disappointment. My strive for "perfection" is what leads me to hurt myself and try to kill myself and starve and try to destroy myself. If I can't be perfect I should not bother existing right? I am such a disappointment to everyone. How dare I not be a robot that never makes mistakes? How dare I not catch everyone else's mistakes? How dare O not want to do my job and the jobs of all of my coworkers and smile while being derided for their mistakes? How dare I be human? I am not allowed to be human. If I can't be human why should I bother living? Really someone explain to me the point of trying to live a life that I will constantly fail at? Why waste my time? Even when I am happy other people make sure to make me feel bad.
9:47 a.m. - 2011-04-19
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