I'm taking it a day at a time. Took today off of work because I fucking deserve it.
I am swollen still from the alcohol and pills. My face my abdomen. It hurts to move my back or touch my stomach. I have a nice huge scabby scar on the side of my face.
I have been living on Chinese food and ice cream. I can't lave my house right now. But I am working on my homework for tomorrow.
I watch marathons. My favorite thing to do no matter the show. the repetition makes me feel safe.
I still paid my bills and put money in savings.
I realize how unhappy the people around me make me. I felt trapped. I cannot care about that anymore. I spend all my time worrying and trying to help other people. I like that but I need to worry about me. The only thing I do for myself, school, is treated as shit by everyone. People not understanding that I have homework, ridiculing the need for school,. pissed that I am leaving to go somewhere better, making me miss class for work because of their laziness.
No more.
1:22 p.m. - 2011-04-18
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