Eating too much again but that is to be expected. Not as bad as last weekend and I am happy I never got that Chinese food. That was a b/p in the making.
I didn't work out yesterday (my one day off a week) so I will today. I'm downloading a new Pilates workout but it won't be done for a while so I will do one of the old ones and maybe some yoga.
So glad i have tomorrow off. Herbie (my cat) will be my Valentine.
I've turned my phone off so I don't have to deal with annoying people like my friend who wants me to be her fucking slave. Fuck her.
I am going to go and spend my last $5 on cheap alcohol, cheese, chips and sour cream. Or I could use my credit card so I can afford a bit more food. I'm paying it off in full on Tuesday so I will just use the card and pay extra on Tuesday. Yes that's a good plan. then I have $15 to spend instead of $5 so I can buy more alcohol/food.
I don't think I'll purge though. I am still doing OK on that front.
Been going back reading old diary entries of other people./ It helps me get to know my DL buddies so much better. And it's like reading a book honestly. There is a narrative there and it's real life. I worry but at the same time I am amazed by how strong all of you are. I really like getting to know the people on DL. It helps keep me a little saner.
I am still worried about leaving my house. But they don't move to my neighborhood until next weekend so I'm safe. I just don't want to have to look presentable every time I leave. And I am always drunk/buying alcohol/binge food so I don't want to deal with that. And I walk everywhere because I am scared of driving so I am bound to have them drive past me and laugh that I am a loser. I am a loser I guess.
It's all right. In NYC I;m not a loser because everyone is crazy there! I was actually depressed there but I have more confidence in myself now. I will be fine. And no one drives there yay! I was the queen of the subway haha.
I need to do my homework.
12:13 p.m. - 2011-02-13
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