145. Fuck I need to do something about this. I may be smaller but I am still too heavy and have too much fat.
I'm going to start working out twice a day now. In the morning and yoga or pilates at night. I need to start eating breakfast or having more coffee cals in the morning to get my metabolism going.
I need to keep the detox going and keep the alcohol consumption low. I only had one and a half glasses last night
I can see that I am more toned and I know gaining muscle is keeping me heavier. I guess at this point getting to 139 will half to be good enough. 125 will be impossible I think. I like muscle too much.
I actually dreamt of exercising last night. It was lovely. I like being strong. I watched this show about the Big Apple Circus on PBS last night and the women were muscular but so feminine. They were strong and flexible and lovely like dancers. I want a body like that.
I dread going to work.
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