I am in one of my writing phases so I feel the need to update every 5 seconds. I do feel this is the only place I can be open without consequence. I can't even do that with my best friend.
My current crush as well as the fuck buddy are so triggering. Neither of them ever eat. Fuck buddy would come over and eat the pirate's botty I had lying around and drink. i would be starving and want to get food but he wouldn't take me or want to go. It would be at least 12 hours of not eating and constant fucking so you'd think he's be hungry.
My crush never eats either. If he does eat it's a hot dag. And he thinks I eat super fast and inhale my food so obviously he thinks I'm a pig. I called him on it and he claimed that no he just eats slow and walks slow and does every thing slowly. I was like what the fuck ever liar. Later after another day of him complaining he was hungry, I told him he was anorexic and we were going to have an Intervention for him. He laughed but not as much as you would think so maybe it's true.
I did realize that the only reason I even have a crush on this dude is because I am fucking horny and haven't had sex in 2 months. I started liking him like a month ago so one month into my dry streak. So I just need to get laid and he will cease to exist.
Logically he is not even my type as he has really bad teeth (like yellow and crooked. Ugh I hate bad teeth sorry) and he is skinny and scrawnier than me (why have a dude whose ass I can kick) he is broke all the time and is very immature. He didn't graduate college because he dropped out, he doesn't eat and is an asshole. He is one of those people who brags about how awesome he is and truly believes it. Like he says everyone says he'd be a great radio broadcaster. I said most of the ones suck and he said he knew and that he knew he was way better than them. Seriously? Way to be cocky jackass. I told him the only reason I talk to him is because no one else will talk to me. He said he had no shame and he didn't care if that was the only reason I talked to him. he said it was no skin off of his back. What the fuck does that even mean? Seriously the dude has self-esteem that is way above what is reasonable.
Apparently he only dates super hot modelly chicks and basically sucks. I need to keep reminding myself of that so I can get over this faster. My goal is to have moved on in 2 weeks. Which means I need to get laid in 2 weeks. I also need to lose 8 pounds.
7:34 a.m. - 2010-05-19
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