Yesterday was an odd day. Now that I have woken up and tried to process it I am super confused.
I got to work in the morning and my boss was late at an eye doctor's appt. so me and my crush were shottin the shit about random crap. I was working and he was faxing stuff and sitting on the counter like he was mr. cool guy always trying to show how special he is. It was funny because we started to fight about basketball because although we both like the Spurs, now that they have lost I am rooting for Boston (love all Boston teams) and he is rooting for Orlando (what the fuck ever.) He went on a ridiculous tirade about them and I laughed because they are winners.
Later I was cold so he offered me his jacket even though he was freezing. He also turned the heat up to 74 degrees because I was cold and then every one else complained it was fucking hot. He lent me the coat and said it might be too small and I got pissed and asked how big did he think I was. He tried to back track and say no, that it's small on him, but I tried it on and it was huge so what the fuck ever. Like I had to roll the sleeves up. At least I showed I am not a lardass. It looked like I was wearing something my dad would wear because it was so big.
At some point he and some other chick were talking about sun block and this dude complains because it doesn't work on him. She said what do you mean you aren't that dark. He was like yeah but sun block doesn't work it only gets worse than this. Ummm yeah being dark is a bad thing. What the fuck dude? Seriously if you're going to say shit like that try not to say it in front of me the rsident black chick. So I was annoyed but didn;t say anything. I had my back to them in the same room and I just ignored him for the rest of the afternoon. He spent all his time playing music loudly so I would notice and making noise to get my attention but I was like whatever.
Then I had to ship my package through Fed Ex as always do I printed the label and asked them to come at 6 like they usually do. I had to wait so at 5:45 we went to smoke one of cigarettes. Before I was ready to go outside I asked him when he was leaving because everyone else was gone and he said don't worry I'm not leaving you here. And I was like what the fuck is he talking about.
We smoked and I came inside and the box was there while I was there until like 6:40. I was emailing the crush and complaining and being sad blah blah and he said we'll smoke a cigarette before I have to go to help you wait. So we did and when we came inside the box was there and he randomly;y offered to take me and the box and take me home. I was like yay! And he said we'd smoke some weed so of course i was pysched.
He took me to the fed ex by my house and it took like 20 minutes. The scanner thing didn't work and it was a mess. The last lady who helped was this black chick who mildly resembled me same hair style and clothes but skinnier and shorter and a tad lighter I suppose. After she helped us he said she was kind of cute and looked at me smiling. Umm like what the fuck, I guess I'd be cute if I was short skinny and whatever the fuck else. Ewww
Then we left and I told him to turn right because I live .5 mile from fed ex. Instead he said we're going to smoke and turned the other direction. i thought we'd just druve ariund. Nope he drove me all the way to his house on the other side of town. I thought we'd juse smoke and I'd leave but I was there 2 hours. We smoked and I drank a couple beers while being so self-conscious about what I was saying and wearing and how fat I was.
What the fuck it was weird. His apartment is like a typical college dudes expect this dude is like 26. Its like mattress on the floor, futon, xbox, lcd tv. No food but plenty of beer. He spent the whole time telling me stories about his awesomeness at sports, work, whatever. I of course smiled and laughed and said how awesome he was, while hoping the fact that I didn't eat today wouldn't make me pass out or act like an idiot.
Hahah god I don't think I said like 2 senetnces about myself expcet when I talked about wanting to be a professor. he found that very cool for some reason.
I wonder why he took me over there. obviously nothing happened besides us hanging out but why even hang out. I didn;t get home until almost 10 and I felt bad because we do not live near each other. Plus I know if I had a boyfriend and he did something like that I'd be pissed. But it was all very innocent, just me freaking out internally.
In more important news I am now 164. I hope to be 163/62 by Friday then 160 by next Wednesday and under 160 by Memorial Day weekend. 8 days to lose 5 pounds. It can be done.
8:17 a.m. - 2010-05-20
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