I've become obsessed with food again. Counting, measuring, I wish I had a scale to weigh the food too (I might buy one this weekend when I get a digital scale to measure my fat %). Exercising until I want to pass out. Loving the feeling of hunger. I am finally going back to who i am supposed to be. Those years of "recovery" from my bulimia have done a toll on my body. Fat, flabby, etc. I would rather bp all day and not eat real meals than what i have become. The swings form starvation and overindulgence were legendary and I miss them. Blacking out when I would stand up, being too weak to move. Those things were what made me stop but at this point perhaps I can control myself enough to not get to the point. We shall see.
7:40 a.m. - 2010-01-29
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