I didn't lose any weight yesterday or today AND i ate almost 1500 cals today because I went out to eat with my ex. I made it clear nothing was going to happen because I paid for myself and said he couldn't come in. It was nice enough except I was exhausted and still am.
I am so fucking fat I feel like shit. I actually cried yesterday and will agin today because of how fat and pathetic I am that I care that I am fat. I am almost 30 people have kids and husbands and I have a cat who hates me and a fat belly. I just need to get deep into my exercising and restricting again so I won;t feel bad when I am rejected.
Haven't heard form HS guy. Guess it;s time to give up. it's been a mess since the beginnign with him being an ass and me being crazy as I always am. Plus I am too fat to date right now and dating also leads to too much food/drink.
I did find some hot guys on OKCupid. One was 25 though! too young I will be 30 this year. i had fun winking at people lol. Of course no one replied because I suck but whatever.
9:13 p.m. - 2010-01-27
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