I keep forgetting to update even though I am obsessive about checking to see whether any of you have updated.
My b-day party is next saturday. My friends are planning it and it involves atlantic city which makes me super happy.
My friend has been staying with us for 6 weeks and hasnt paid any rent. he paid 2 of our bills. 120$ for $1500 worth of free rent. He sreamed at me for hours and at some point callied me a hypocrit because I asked him to repay me for the $7 I lent him.
I hate being here. They both scream at me and act as if its ok and wonder why I wont speak to them. I hate them. I want to live alone where I will feel safe.
My stomach was hurting so basdly I thought it had ruptured. I didnt purge for a week then once yesterday and today because I feel worthless. I am living with 2 people who prorbaly wish I was dead. Maybe they will get their wish sooner than they think.
I hope i live to see my birthday. Its only 9 days away. I feel so weak like my body si shutting down. After 10.5 years of this how can I last any longer. I want to quit. My heart hurts so much. All I do is cry. I hate being so fat and helpless. I want someone to care.
10:51 p.m. - 2003-09-28
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