Sorry for not updating (hello blue eyes 76!) but i was out of town recently. i went to the poconos with my friends for the fourth of july. it was nice. for once in a very long while i felt happy and calm. very few pangs of jealously or insecurity arose. the city preys on my weaknesses. new york is glamour, its where people come to make their fortunes, to suceed and beging a wonderful new life. i came here to follow my dreams and i have failed time and time again. their are 12 million people ehre and i am still alone. everyone is fashionable and thin (or they seem to be in my eyes.) but i still hope to make it here, if not for myself then for my mother who broke herself in two putting me through school.
in other news my friends and my rommate don't get along. quite frankly i dont care cause my rommate has been getting on my nerves. i am expected and instructed ot do everythign that relates to the apt, paying or fixing bills, sceduling repairs, staying home during the day to wait for workamn to come. i know i have no job but do i have to make all the calls espcially when it is in regards to repairs i know nothing about? whatever. i vented about it to a friend so now i feel better.
in other news i want to beging my new diet plan: under 1000 cals (including liquor) and 30 minutes of exercise a day. nice and simple. wish me luck.
4:03 p.m. - 2003-07-08
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