I wore pants that are too tight for me that fit fine a month ago. The zipper won't stay up and I am embarrassed. This is what I get for being a fat piece of shit.
I can barely stay under 1500 calories these days. Just a few months ago, I could stay under 1000 easily. And yet my weight didn't change either way so what the fuck is the point.
I wanted to purge last night, but I didn't purely because I didn't want to throw up my birth control pill.
I am happy I get to start drinking again on Thursday. Fuck those damn pills. I do feel so much better though so it was worth the $200 I had to pay. Fucking shit insurance company. I think I might not even bother getting it next year. The penalty would be worth it. I wish we had real universal healthcare here. I did get a "free" ($47) physical. I had to pay for part of the lab work. Likely because I requested extra stuff that is not usually covered. What I should do is just find doctors who take my insurance like a normal person does. I am just lazy and annoyed.
I am so tired of seeing all the shit we as Black people take in this country. My boss loves to ask me if I watched the latest video (there is always a video.) No, I haven't. I live it every day, why would I watch someone suffer or die when this is my reality. Goddam torture porn. What are you doing to help? Watch the videos, fine, but fucking do something too besides asking your one Black employee about it.
I am also tired of being single. It's easy to get laid but impossible to get someone to date me. Even the dude I thought I was dating (we went out to dinner, etc.) said we weren't, and said I must have "misunderstood." Fuck him, I dropped his ugly ass real quick.
Yes, I know, no one wants to date a Black chick. I get it. We are the worst according to every fucking poll and study every done. Fucking A. Life sucks most days.
9:24 a.m. - 2015-06-09
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