I am feeling very calm. I have made up my mind to find something else because I am not creatively fulfilled here. I don't know when I am going to leave but at least I know why. I don't even have a portfolio of work because I haven't done shit. I even had portfolios at ever internship I've done. What a bunch of bullshit.
Perhaps I am too sensitive and moody, perfect for a more creative pursuit. I want to know when i die that I spent my time wisely, doing something I love and something that lasts. I miss writing and reading and creating things. I do none of those things now and I hate waking up some days. It's not healthy for me to be so crazy and miserable. So lonely and unfulfilled.
I am so fucking broke right now, it sucks. I just spent $600 at the dentist in the last week. I gotta get dental insurance, this is nuts.
9:20 a.m. - 2014-03-06
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