So my goal for next semester is to work as many jobs as possible to earn as much money as possible. I am keeping my internship at the weaving place because I really like it. The lady is a mentor to me now and I want the place to succeed. The other internship is going to be placed on the back burner. I only have 50 hours left and it is NOT a priority. The goal is to just focus on grantwriting and fundraising stuff and leave the rest to the other interns.
I plan to get another job. This one I recently got is part-time so I need another part-time job to fill the hours. I have the 1-2 freelance gigs as well. I need to save money so I can get out of this hellhole apartment!! I hate it here!!!! My roommate us a truly terrible person. She revels in my misery and mocks me mercilessly. I hide in my room so I don't scream at her and call her trash because I need a place to live and don't want it to be worse than it is. I just hate it here so much. She laughs in my face when I am sad. When I am hurting it gives her some kind of sick thrill. And if I call her on it, it's a "joke" so I should just get over it. I have been so kind to her and she just treats me like shit. Fuck her.
And I just found out one of my good friends is a pathological liar and a bad person too. He let me open up to him about how terrible I feel, all while lying and acting like he never did bad things. He let me think his boyfriend was a jerk who used him and cheated on him when in fact my friend had REPEATEDLY cheated on the boyfriend. He made any potential friendship we could have had, completely nonexsistent. I am having a talk with him Tuesday and telling him that I do not trust him anymore. He lies too much to me, to everyone, I don't see why I should believe a word he says. And now I think back to all the lies he has likely told to me and about me. And I get sick to my stomach.
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