My trip was great, meaningful, enlightening and most necessary.
I see that I can easily move back to NYC, but things will not be the same as they were. Both a good and a less good thing (not bad per se). I have the knowledge, skills and desire to move back. I have the drive and the strength. Everything I have done has been on my own (as far as moving and school and such, my parents (well mom. wow double parentheses) have (has) helped me a lot with my debt and things like that.) My friends have their significant others or family to help them pay bills, move items, even just get around town without being lost is easier if you have a friend with you.
I moved to NYC the first time alone. No family. No friends. I will be going back to a town with people I know and a place where I don't need to drive, which is lovely. Because I don't. I have school and I have a life that i have worked hard to develop. So I can do it.
It is kind of sad that we have all grown older but I am still single and roaming about. I like to roam and move from town to town. I have never lived in one place longer than 6-7 years. Even as a child.
When i saw my friends they were less fit, and less energized than they used to be. But they were happy and committed and living their lives. I want to live my life too and Texas is NOT the place for me to do that. Being here drains me of my potential.
I got my new NYU ID and info on the Career Center. I signed my lease and saw my new apartment. So I am set mentally. I know how much room I will have to bring all of my stuff.
It's weird how life has changed. Some people are lesbians now, some people have passed away. Some people have moved away.
I also see that these successes are not just gained through hard work. One friend has her parents paying her rent and transportation fees. She only works 20 hours a week! Others received jobs through "knowing people". I never have. Other sacrifice a family life for time to travel around the world or continue their education. Everyone has a price. I will sacrifice fancy things for education every time.
They finally fixed my computer at work! And my apartment door and bathroom door! Leaving for a few days made things much better. I have no groceries though.
My legs are sore from all the walking. I didn't even work out and I am exhausted. Yay!
1:15 p.m. - 2011-07-19
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