Wooo just did my 20 minute Pilates while my veggie chicken cooked and I feel good. Still way flabby but I am feeling motivated now.
I feel like a winner (I swear to God I am not referencing that meme right now) because my coworker now sees that after all of this, I truly am better than him. Not necessarily in a snobby way (well maybe) but in the way that I fucking work hard to better myself, I always show up to work on time, I rely on my smarts and skill not my looks and I have earned that I have. He's gotten by on a pretty face and a gay CEO and by flirting with anything and everything. Eventually he will hit a brick wall and it seems he is there already. I continue to invest in my future. As depressed as I am, I do believe i will have one. After being rejected, insulted, hurt and humiliated, it feels good to finally win.
And of course now my mind is free of his negative influence and I am thinking about all the great guys who are out there and the great things that I can do. I finally have faith in myself again. It's nice to finally win one.
8:10 p.m. - 2011-03-03
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