I feel that I finally am seeing what I should have years ago. I attract people through my seemingly nice outsides and insane and weak insides. I can be guilted into giving people money, sympathy whatever they want while I push myself to the back. I get drunk and I am convinced to fight or embarrass myself for their amusement. My health and well-being are of no concern. So I finally am starting to see that being a lone is better than being with toxic people. I do think I can do better and deserve better. I am easily manipulated but I am smart enough to know better. People try to hurt my on purpose because it's worked so well before. Being stolen from, being guilted into doing someone's homework an taking a whole class for them! This is ridiculous.
9:52 a.m. - 2011-02-21
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