I still weigh less today than yesterday. Not a good reason to b/p though. I do look back and read my old entries with multiple b/ps a day, the contsant smoking, the drinking, the drugs, the cutting and I do see how far I have come. I believe my slide has more to do with others invading my space and my mind than me slipping by myself.
I just need to be strong and get better.
I had a dream about omar last night and it was sweet. I hope this means I am finally over my coworker for good which would be nice. I would like to be indifferent to him (not hate not like not lust after) before he moves over here with his gf. So that I won't be nervous about leaving my house or upset when I see them. I will always know what kind of guy he is and a person like that is not a good one.
I want to move my Kaplan audition back a week because I don't have the money to pay for the audition space yet. I get paid again the 28th so I will have the money then.
Since I have an early meeting on Saturday maybe I will actually go to the MENSA thing this week. I want that free wine and I have nothing better to do. The Spurs play Thursday not Friday and then it's the all-star break.
I woke up exactly at 7 AM today. Too bad my alarm was set for 7:45 haha.
The zit I've had on my chin for a month is finally almost gone. It hurt so bad and even when I popped it, it never left. Gross and TMI but fuck I'm 30 and still getting painful zits. This fucking retinol is supposed to help that too.
Oh and I was pissed because my grocery store stopped selling the veggie bacon. Now it's veggie sausage which is tasty but can't be used in salads and sandwiches. Oh well maybe I'll eat less now.
7:25 a.m. - 2011-02-16
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