After boo-hooing and feeling sorry for myself I decided to look back at entries from 1 year ago and 2 years ago. Both one and two years ago I was 175-180 pounds. I was single. I was broke. I was depressed. A year ago I cut myself for one of the last times. I still have the scars in fact. Two years ago the company that fired me had massive layoffs and cut our salaries. I was miserable.
I am doing so much better now. Almost 40 pounds lighter and a million times happier. In school, better job, honestly less depressed. Not b/ping as much. I wanted to try top regain my gag reflex to purge more last year. Ugh that's really bad. I had OD'd on Adderral Thanksgiving of 2008. I was taking ephedra again last year. Just a fucking mess.
Reading these old entries is good for me. Man was I sad an pathetic. But it's a process and it's me.
11:27 a.m. - 2011-02-10
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