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Had an OK weekend. Mind you a bad/ok weekend before was doing tons of coke and drinking smoking going out forgetting where I was/who I texted, losing my wallet/keys/money/mind. This weekend ocnsidted of me not going to the gym and smoking 1.5 cigarettes. And that made me feel bad haha. I didn't even b/p. I did binge too much but I decided to counter that by not weighing myself so I wouldn't purge or be too depressed this week.
I of course have now started taking precautions,. like deleting people form my phone that I tend to drunkenly text (guys of course) and not talking to druggie people. I returned to my true love of watching the Spurs, drinking and then waking up early to watch hours of Law and Order. I really do love doing that. So lame I know.
I do miss smoking weed but it's too hard to find right now and just leads to the munchies and stupid behavior. I will pass on it for now.
I like that right now I don't feel like I am depriving myself. At least for now I don't want to smoke or do drugs. I need to hold onto that as long as I can. I think the fact that it costs so much money is why I don't miss it. I really want to go back to NYC more than anything and I made my budget very tight so I can save money to go. So NYC wins out over drugs, b/p and other reckless behavior (for now.)
I have class in 25 minutes so I'm off! I have a quiz today too so that sucks :-(. I would have thought that by 30 I'd be over my brattiness about going to school. But nope it's still there. I think the years of perfect attendance forced upon me by my parents have led to this rebellious streak. Oh well. Time to learn something I guess.
5:31 p.m. - 2011-01-31
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