This is the first time in months that exercise actually made me feel energized. I felt like puking and could barely stand for a while but now I'm wide-eyed, happy and motivated. I'm at work, eating pretzels, drinking water and feeling good.
I filled out my FAFSA today for school. I printed out the remaining labels for my NYU app. I plan to mail it out on Monday or Tuesday so it gets there in plenty of time. I need to bind the portfolio and that's the last step after I re-revise my essay. Woohoo!
I finally see that this city isn't right for me at all. This city is like high school, people gossip like crazy, everyone knows each other since birth and I don't fit in. The big goals are living with a guy and getting knocked up, drinking beer and watching the Spurs. Grad school is actually laughed at. Plenty of people don't even have undergrad degrees or high school diplomas. Having goals and striving for more is seen as thinking you are better than others. Even our professors (whom we are paying with our tuition money) tell us how we won't succeed and we will be poor forever. Fuck them. I won't quit, I'll leave and go some place better for me. I won't let these people wear me down.
Not smoking has been nice. I like not worrying about dying all the damn time.
My skin is already starting to look better. Yay!
11:39 a.m. - 2011-01-20
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