Working hard at work. Trying to get my emotions in check. Right now I am not at all looking forward to Omar coming this weekend. I've been so put off by his behavior that I don't really like him even as a person anymore. Good for me because I don't need the unfortunate emotional entanglement.
Slowly becoming less engaged with my coworker as well. That of course ebbs and flows but the general apathy I feel coming from him towards me and his intense affection towards anyone who isn't me, makes me realize that it is a foolish and wasted effort. Of course logically I always knew that but if the world were always logical I'd be Queen by now lol.
Going to buy more groceries today (no ice cream!) so I will be able to cook for myself instead of eating out all the time. I think I'll buy some things to cook tonight so I can have my meals ready for next week until I go out of town.
So excited for Christmas! I want next year to be the best yet. I'm working to set myself up in a smart fashion so I don't fritter my money away like I usually do. I've been drug-free for like 3 weeks now and I refuse to answer when my dealers call. I want to stick with alcohol. Even that gets to be too much.
I need to write my resolutions for next year. I got a lot of the ones I wanted this year including making $40,000 (just got my raise), weighing 145 (below that now), getting more articles published, and starting grad school.
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