Had my 24 hours of binging and drinking and now I'm back to being somewhat normal. I saved my last few dollars and didn't buy cigarettes or more alcohol. i slept it off and now I'm exercising and cleaning a bit.
If I can keep my bad behavior to one 24 hour period-Friday night through Saturday night-I'll feel much better. I get to let go for a while and I won't go overboard.
I desperately want my life to get better. I want to take care of myself. it's so hard to think I might deserve to be happy. The better I try to feel about myself, the more alone I feel. No one wants a confident, happy raygirl. Because then she might actually put herself first.
9:48 p.m. - 2010-12-11
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