So sad that some of my favorite diarists have disappeared. SoSuga, WilyRed, VLA, Unclassy, Crazy4Blues, on and on and on. I feel like I'm too old for DL. Everyone on here is either very young or my age and established and rarely updates. I'm stuck in my same self-destructive cycle. With no good job prospects, no husband, no boyfriend, nothing but worthlessness and unfortunate sex.
As I struggle to gain maturity, I realize that I need to surround myself with people who are searching for, or have achieved, the same goals. I can't revert back to my teenage years or even my early 20s.
I keep drinking and eating. I'm just so uninterested in anything. I wish I could afford books. i suppose I could go to the library. But I don't want to have to give my books back :-(
I guess I could re-read my Harry Potter collection. We all know I love the HP. Saw the 1st half of Deathly Hallows over Thanksgiving. I have to wait until July for the end. And fuck Eclipse or whatever the fuck that vampire werewolf bullshit is. Insultingly stupid, derivative and pathetic. no wonder this country loves it. Ugh I want to move out of the US so much. But I think it's living in Texas that makes me hate it here. When I was in NYC I loved life in the USA.
I love my cat. That is all.
12:33 p.m. - 2010-12-11
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