I've been put somewhere I don't want to be in life. I'm torn between being fully myself and to bowing to outside pressures designed to put me in my place. One way makes me happy but likely unsuccessful in life and love. The other will make me miserable but the world will be my oyster.
What to do?
I think I shall just delve deeper into my exercising, purging and starving and focus on my independent schoolwork. Everything else is out of my control. There actually is a lot of work I need to do to my body and that will distract me nicely. And education is so important. Striving to get all A's will take up tons of time. Anything else is unimportant. Work, boys, friends. All too easily disappointing.
My personality will settle into an acceptable level of insanity for society to deal with.
12:12 p.m. - 2010-11-21
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