Had the worst night of my life last night.
Was drugged. GHB probably, Not raped thank god.
Blacked out completely. Don't remember anything of the last party we went to.
Slept 13 hours, when I never sleep later than 8 AM even on weekends. I slept until 3:30 PM.
$70 stolen from me.
I had to be carried from the car.
I apparently mistook my friend's living room for the bathroom and peed all over the floor.
Then fell into their entertainment center, broke one door of it (which I will definitely pay for, I feel awful about it) and bled all over the floor.
I'm covered in scars.
I barely drank anything. I tried to be good last night on purpose.
All for naught I guess.
I can't stop crying. I don't want to have friends anymore.
This party was one that a new "friend" held. Gay guy so why wouldn't I trust him. Obviously either he or his friends are terrible people.
My "best friend" who I went with, made sure to tell me--4 FUCKING times--that I ate THREE slices of pizza at the party. Not so concerned about the fact I could have died form being drugged. He honestly was more horrified that I ate 3 slices of pizza. Who the fuck keeps count of something like that when their friend is drugged out of their mind? He's a piece of shit too.
Honestly I think I hate him too now. Asshole. If he had been more concerned about my health and not the fact that I've lost weight (he is enraged about that since he's the "recovered" anorexic and I'm the loser bulimic) he would have made sure I wasn't drugged and robbed.
And he blamed me of course. Said I shouldn't trust people I just met. I reminded him that I met him at a gay club too and randomly hung out with him and his friends. I didn't even bring anyone with me when i hung out with him.
At least at the party I had him and this other "friend" of mine who may have stolen my money actually. He used my phone all night. 13 motherfucking calls.
I'm done with people. I hate all of them. I feel so disgusted.
Why can't my life be normal? I want to starve and b/p until I die.
6:25 p.m. - 2010-10-31
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