Watching a show on eating disorders on E! right now and all I can think is that I am not trying hard enough, I am not purging enough or starving enough to make a difference. i am pathetic. I can't even have an eating disorder right. Seeing these people that are thinner than me think they are fat. Makes me see that I am actually obese and more disgusting than I thought. I need to focus less (or not at all) or boys and more on killing the fat beast inside of me.
9:20 p.m. - 2010-10-13
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