I am so fucking tired.
Yesterday during work my coworker (the one I like) asked if my friend sold weed since I had just gotten some. i said no it's a friend of a friend but I have some. So he decided to come over after work and smoke. On the way to my house he asked what I was doing later and I said nothing so he planned to come over and smoke, get more weed and come back over and smoke some more. I was like sure.
So we went to Valero (formerly Diamond Shamrock) and get a cigar and he bought me a soda. How nice.
We came to my apt which was a mess and I was very embarrased. He also flicked the wasp's nest off of my front door when I wasn't looking. What the fuck those wasps are scary and make it hard for me to enter or leave my front door. That was rather brave of him. I wonder if he was showing off...
Anyway we hang out for a while and he asks for my number. Hahah I felt like a teenager. I didn't ask for his because that's weird and I would have it after the texted me anyway. So he left at like 8 and then went...home? I guess? It started raining and I was sure he wasn't coming back. But he texted me at like 9:30 and asked for my address and asked if I wanted beer. i was like sure whatever you want.
So he came back and we smoked more of my weed since he hadn't gotten his yet. Drank some beer and just hung out. He didn't leave until like midnight. I am tired. I am confused. I am also pissed I wasn't calories on 3 beers which in no way would get me drunk. He sat too close to me on my couch and his leg touched mine and I was shaking: form lack of food, alcohol on an empty stomach, too many cigarettes and nerves. I also felt sure I was going to puke due to the beer being drunk so quickly. I was full of carbonation and my stomach thinks that means purging time. If anything had happened (which it never will but it's fun to dream) I would have thrown up all over him or worse. I was so tired I actually was waiting for him to leave. I go to bed at like 10 and wake up at 6 or 7. I still woke up at 6:30 but I am exhausted.
I have no idea what I am going to do now. I can't make a move on a guy with a girlfriend so at least that keeps me from making a fool of myself as usual.
I didn't wash my face and I look like shit.
7:58 a.m. - 2010-06-09
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