After ignoring me for weeks and saying he wasn't coming fuck buddy texted me today about how much he missing fucking my ass. How sweet. I texted him back to come over and surprise surprise he never responded. Fucking A. I went back on OK cupid after a month just to get my mind off of him and my damn coworker crush. I really need to get over him because I see him every day and it sucks. He insists on coming into my office to show me random stuff he is working on to get my opinion. And I still wear his coat around the office because it's cold and it makes me happy. Ugh I hate how lame I am.
And my ex form like 4 years ago texted me to hang out again. Like he does this every couple of weeks and I never go. I don't want to deal with it. It's weird.
I am desperately looking for weed now that I smoked the other day. I obviously won't be asking coworker where he got his because I want no further ties with him. I think I have a potential connect but he is out of town until the end of the month.
I drank 2 bottles of wine between getting home last night and 12 today. I actually felt slightly sick for like an hour or two but then I was OK. My tolerance has gone way up again. With the lack of food it is not good.
I ate a can of pringles, some eggs and a veggie burger with fries since i got home last night too so my calories are out of control. I will have to really buckle down Sunday through Friday so I can try and get myself under control.
Going to Houston for Memorial Day I think instead of Austin. My BFF from NYC is coming down with his boyfriend for Ke$ha in July. School starts in August. So why am I so depressed? Oh that's right because I am fat and single and unlovable besides my cat and my mom. Happy Saturday!
7:06 p.m. - 2010-05-22
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