Of course he still wants to visit me. I had excuses for every weekend this month except the last one and he still wants to come but doesn't want to wait that long. Technically the event I had this weekend was postponed so I could see him. I told him I'd let him know but there's just no way. I am too fat and will feel ugly. So no, I have convinced myself that it isn't happening.
I don;t understand. i look somewhat better but my weight doesn't change and neither does my fat percentage. It seems to go up every morning actually. It was 34% today!. After being 31% last night. What the fuck! Seriously is this scale the biggest piece of shit or is my body that fucked up?
Having another 3+ weeks to lose weight would make me feel better. So sorry dude you gotta wait or just find someone else. I'd rather he fuck someone else than see my fat bloated piece of shit body. It would ruin my life (as dramatic as that sounds.)
Besides it's the Super Bowl this weekend and I want to drink beer and watch hours of ESPN and I can;t do that if he's here. Go Saints!
7:23 a.m. - 2010-02-03
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