Spending the evening downloading my fave 90s songs like Spin Doctors, Soundgarden, Veruca Salt, the Breeders. I am in heaven right now.
I also hardcore cleaned my apt and did laundry. I worked out this morning but of course ate like a pig. Oh well.
I did my taxes and my fafsa and I plan to apply for grad school within the next 2 weeks.
Sadly I am still depressed because I am single with no prospects and fat as fuck. I am going to NYC in less than 3 weeks. I need to lose 11 pounds and I will be happy(er) I guess.
I realize that I am not as hot, interesting or smart as I think I am (or perhaps was..I don;t know) I need to start settling more and giving in and just giving up. How can I be so proud when I have so little to offer?
I do plan to get back on track this year. I made my resolutions finally so once I reach all those I will feel worthy of feeling like I matter.
7:54 p.m. - 2010-01-31
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