150 still. But i seem to be losing inches. I bought some pants from New York in Company that were a size "Tall/Small." Small? I think not, Plus the size 6's I got were too big so obviously they are into vanity sizing. Like any normal person would believe that because they can wear a size 4 in ONE store that makes them a size 4, even if in every other store on the planet they are a size fucking 16.
I got fucked up on Tuesday during/after watching the Spurs game. Go Spurs Go! This dude I kind of hook up with was there with his friend. His friend got wasted and told me I was beuatiful in front of his friend. Sweet! He also called me his friends "girl" and he got all pissed. "Yo i don;t have a girl!" That's right you don't cause I realize I am way better than you asshole. You had your chance. Yes I am 12 years old.
I was so drunk that I either didn;t set my alarm or turned it off and woke up at 10:30 am when I am supposed to wake up at 6 am. I called work all hysterical. I felt so physically fucked up. My chest was hurting worse than usual. I hate missing work. As much as I hate my job I am responsible. I was crying. I need to stop drinking. It makes me fat and irresponsible and I hook up with nasty dudes.
The other day I got wasted and showed this hotel room full of guys my ass and my boobs. I was being such a freak. I am lucky nothing happened to me, but my best friend and I got in a HUGE fucking fight. I was livid. I need to just chill the fuck out.I also need ot go to the doctor for these chest pains. I guess all the purging has taken it's toll. I threw up yesterday out of hung-over-ness.
Damn I realized that I am sop bloated and piggish and durnken cause i am starting my period tomorrow. I always seem to get manic around these times.
8:27 p.m. - 2005-05-12
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