I joined a gym today. Golds Gymn which is $49 joining fee and then $32 a month with all classes included. I am so fucking gross right now due to copious drinking. I have been purging again, what the hell is wrong with me.
The guy I had been talking to stopped talking to me after a whole week. I cared--and then I didn't.
I need to lose 30 pounds. I am up to 156!! At 5' 10.5" that is the most I can weight and still eb a healthy weight with a medium frame. Actually I am one ounce to heavy since I am 156lb and 1 oz.
I have turned into a drunk. I drink everyday and I drink a lot/. I makes me feel good about myself and not so fat and nervous. I am so socially awkward and yet rather popular with random club people. I don't feel so much pressure then.
God damn I hate the fucking Yankees.
I must stop smoking. Its been a day here and there that I stop.,..a cigarette here and there when I have one. The cancer comes one step at a time.
3 things to quit this year:
smoking
purging
getting drunk alone
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