142 this morning. 3 pounds away form my first goal. I have until Septemeber 3. Maybe I can be 135 by then which is close to my all time low of 132. I am extremely motivated right now. I need to up my exercise quotient though. I am kind of sore from the leg lifts and lunges but the rest of my body feels fine. So tonight I will turn up my Eminem and work my body to the brink of exhaustion, while watching the Olympics with closed captions on.
I am aiming for another 800 cals today. I think my body feels pretty confortable having that many. I don't get too lightheaded and I don't feel the need to binge. No more purging. A few slip ups haven't sent me back over the edge, thank God. I can't live like that anymore. I want to be thin and beautiful, not dead.
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