Well I am now gainfully employed. Unfortunately I will only be making $18,500 a year. Pitiful I know. Why esxactly is it that I went to college? One of the peopel I will be working with is going to classes for his G.E.D. Fabulous. My mom told me to take the offer so I did, since she is the one who's been paying my rent the past 3 months. It would save her money and allow me to feel a little less shitty about myself. If I do my best and work hard hopefully i can get something better. I knew I would get this job so thats good, at least I can recognize a good interview when I have one. After taxes I would make anough to pay my rent and that's it. Like no food, no utilities and no going out. But my mom said she would give me money until I find something better or get a raise. Fingers crossed that this happens soon. I feel bad just up and quitting though cause i ofund somethign better. And when would I interview for other jobs? Maybe during lunch or something. Or before or after work as my mom said. Also maybe I can find a side job like editing essays or online tutoring or something. ANYTHING to suppliment my income. Maybe I should sell drugs. Sadly, I should be happy to have anything, but all of my friends are making more money than me. I feel like such a loser. Well whatever, Monday is my first day so wish me luck! Later: God damn i am so fucking fat. I did a little pilates this morning. Tomorrow my roomie and I go for our first real class. I am now basing my eating aroun 7 pm to 7 pm 24 hour periods, instead of the regular wake up and go to sleep day. Between 7 and 7 I had less than 600 cals, cause I stopped eating (binging) at 7 pm last night, purged and didn't eat afterwards. I'm not eating before i go out tonight. I will probably drink too much and want to bincg when I come home. If I am sober enough I will resist and eat somethign small or not at all. I don't know why its easier for me to use the 7 to 7 system. But it helps ceuas either i eat until 7 pm and stop or i wont eat until 7 pm. It gives me a break in the middle of my day.
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