Let's see, what's been going on?
I have not has drink for two whole weeks. Sad how impressed that makes me. I have not felt sick, so at least I was not physically addicted, but I used to drink 5-6 times a week. Like a four loko/jooze, pint of booze or more. A bottle of wine. Even when I had to work the next day. I always woke up fine, if not a bit tired. Rarely nauseated except for the days I let loose on the weekends. Where I'd have 10-15 drinks, or more maybe. I used to drink a bottle of whiskey in 24 hours routinely back in the day. I once drank three bottles of wine in two days. OMG I felt like shit. I just need to get under control and drink less permanently. No going back. I don't miss those days. At the end it became a requirement to drink almost.
I haven't ordered out except one time the other day. That was hundreds of dollars a month, so yay! I am eating healthier also. Less processed food and more protein and potassium. Less sodium. I am working out almost every day. I have lost no weight really but my pants fit better and I feel better. My heartburn is almost gone. I am trying to get my body, skin, hair and mind back in shape. The drinking was making me stupider. I rarely read anymore, just vegged in front of the TV(laptop), ate takeout and drank. Pathetic.
I am still unpacking and making my apartment better. I am planning how to save more money and earn more as well. i need to balance paying off debt and saving money, as well as investing in my retirement. My raise was so vital. I could not have survived otherwise. I am also looking for more freelance work. I need to finish my website today or this weekend and publish it. I am about 60-75% done. I got the domain name and some business cards too!
I think I have bedbugs. The apartment complex has a history of having them (which they told me) and I woke up with bites all over my legs. No skirts for me I guess. I have a K9 unit coming today to check. Even with that, I still like my apartment. Funny how a positive attitude changes things. If I was drinking I likely would not have done anything for weeks and then I would have not followed up and been a fucking mess.
I force myself to work out every day. In the morning for 22-35 minutes. Then I walk for 20-60 minutes throughout the day and do some kind of stretching/Pilates for 10-20 minutes in the evening. I feel stronger as well.
I am netting about 1300 calories and I plan to take it down to 1250. That is 1250 after I take out the exercise calories, so I am eating more than that with exercise cancelling it out. I cannot believe I used to workout for 2-3 hours a day at the gym and eat only 1000 calories a day. Or b/p all day. God I was lightheaded and sick all the time.
I can't wait to see how I'll look and feel in another two weeks. Then I will only drink once a week at most. I hate feeling like I did before. I don't want to go back to that!
I get my test results back on July 29 regarding whether I have cancer or pre-cancer or nothing. Fingers-crossed.
I am feeling lonely. I think i might want to start dating again sometime this year. Sex even? Hmmm.
10:39 a.m. - 2013-07-18
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