Oh my fucking God I am so stressed out! I run run run all day long. Up at 7 AM and it's almost 1 AM and I'm not done yet. I got 3 hours of sleep Tuesday morning, 5 wed, 5 Thursday, I will get 4-5 tonight. I stay up all evening. I have so much homework, internship stuff, freelance, and I still need time to workout and try and see my friends every once in a while. So sleep must wait forever.
AND I still don't have any fucking furniture. Screw you IKEA and Urban Express. I ordered my shit like the 3rd I think. It was supposed to be here the 21st (needed to back order something that was supposed to be in stock according to the computer! Idiots@##$@%) I paid to have it assembled and they somehow decided to ignore me and NOT set them up at the same time. Delivery was set for before 2 PM then the assembly assholes say they are coming between 4 and 8??!!! The fuck? I had plans and had been home all day so I said no just assemble it Saturday. So the fucking idiots at Urban Express decide to not call me at all, miss the 2 PM deadline and then I call and it turns out they figured out that it needed to be assembled (cause I fucking paid for it) and they gave it to the assmbly people to bring to me. UMMM HELLO FUCKING JACKASSES I am not getting it assembled until Saturday!! Why the fuck would you move my shit and not tell me? I HATE YOU SO MUCH!!!
THEN, THEN THEN they send me an automated survey asking how my (non)delivery went! I gave them all terrible ratings and the bitches called me today to ask why. WHY YOU SLATTERNOUS WHOREBAG OF CUNTS?!!!! WHY? Because you still have my fucking furniture and are stupud asshole losers.
In other news I do need to start using and managing my time better. i wasted an entire Wednesday last week just getting high and watching Hulu. Soooo dumb because it ruined my week and I am STILL playing catch-up. I need to do about 4 hours of homework a night to be OK. Plus I have 10 hours a week of one internship, 7-15 hours a week at the other and the freelance job is 5-10 hours every few weeks. I am busy as can be. BUT if I use my free time intelligently and actually read on the train and shit I will be OK. Once I get myself caught up, I will be fine. 2 of my classes I feel very comfortable about. The other scares me. i am going to meet with the professor on Monday. It is so over my head it is ridiculous. And it's required so I am screwed.
I have also gained a lot of tummy fat. It is stress and alcohol related. So I have been going to the gym when I can (reading while I do!) and it makes me feel better to be doing something. And I have been working on being calmer. Deep breathes and refusing to cry (not like bottling it up, but rationally realizing it won't help me at all).
I am hoping that maybe scholarship is real! And I plan to apply for a stipend for this second internship I have (I am getting school credit for the first one), I want to go to Turkey for Spring break study abroad! SO much is going on that is good. My horoscope admits that this time of my life is going to be so trying and I am going to be all alone but that when I make it through my life will be changed forever (for the better or very best!) Please wish me luck and send me kind thoughts. Once this semester is over it will be fine because next semester I plan to take 8 credits total (I will only have 12 left and 4 is for my thesis). 3 will be for the Turkey thing (which isn't all semester, just sometimes), and then one 4 credit class and one little 1 credit fun class. That is one fewer class (as far as credit hours go) so I will have way more time for my internships and freelancing. Luckily I have loan/scholarship money for now.
12:39 a.m. - 2011-09-23
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