I forgot what it feels like to be genuinely happy and look forward to the next day, hour, even minute.
The "hardships" of the past several years have prepared me for this. I say "hardships" because they didn't seem bad to me but in actuality, living in a less urban environment (even though SA has over 1.5 million people) makes life harder. For example:
I don't drive so I'd take the bus. If I missed it, it might be 15, 30 or even 60 more minutes. I was used to having to wait in the heat or occasional rain or cold snap. Now if I miss the train a long wait is usually 15 minutes. (Not weekend obviously).
People walk everywhere. I walked in 100+ degree heat and without sidewalks and was getting honked at and yelled at all day. Now it's normal.
I was used to working 40-50 hours a week and going to class full-time. I now go full-time, have an internship and am looking for part-time work. I may get to do some freelancing as well. It still adds up to less time.
Plus I have been so busy and active, I didn't even think about fat or calories until today. Everyone here is so fucking skinny! But the walking is what does it. I walk so much I am sore. Soon I will start using the school gym. Maybe even tomorrow...? I don't have my workout shoes for some reason.. Or maybe they are hidden in another box. I can and will rock the Cons at the gym. No one cares here! I don't feel like I am being judged. I also don';t feel like a face in the crowd, nameless and unimportant. I feel good, I feel smart and I'm getting things done!
10:22 p.m. - 2011-09-08
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