So proud! I made myself finish my workout plus I walked over 5,500 steps today woohoo! I overate but I think these carb blocker pills are removing the satiety that carbs usually give me so I am starving all the damn time. And they make me poo so I suppose that means they are working.
I plan to get a good night's sleep and get my ass kicked by level 3 of Ripped in 30! It's supposed to be the worst one ever. Worse than level 3 even. I am already sore so should be fun. I see the muscles growing stronger and firmer but the fat remains firm and stubborn dammit.
I received all of my final amazon purchases (meaning the final ones I needed to finish my packing, like the space bags) so now I plan to finish it all. I am supposed to volunteer Thursday and Saturday so tomorrow and Friday, then Saturday afternoon and Sunday will be big packing times. I have plenty of boxes and tape; I just need more newspaper. I need to finalize the junk hauler and vet visit for Herbie. The junk hauler also does apartment cleaning for move outs. Last thing is getting the carpet shampooed. I want to finalize them all tomorrow so i can focus on work. Of course they assigned me tons of extra work because they are too lazy/dumb to do it on their own.
Strangely enough, even though I have gained tons of weight (over 150 again :-( ) I don't feel bad. Because I have been fighting not to smoke, b/p or turn to drugs to lose weight. i could easily buy ephedra, I have in the past and they still email me. I could purge or smoke or anything to curb my appetite or rid myself of food. I just have to accept that now that I quit smoking and don't want to purge, I will have some extra weight for a little while. I won't beat myself up. I still workout and I am learning to love myself.
God I can't believe I am finally moving back. I am honestly happy. And scared. But excited!
9:59 p.m. - 2011-08-09
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