Ugh my stomach hurts. Damn fibroids. ARGH!!!!
My final 2 papers are due today. And then school will be officially over. I tried so hard to make them perfect. Who knows how I did...?
I worked out today and feel good. Just little workouts. Pilates only the past two weeks plus my walking. Tomorrow will be the 30-day shred again. I need to start getting buff.
I've sworn off sex for the time being. Probably until after I move. I feel too fat and depressed to bother. I don't need to develop any more emotional ties before I leave.
I keep gaining weight but I think I am quelled some of the binging urges. And last night I counted calories, was way over my daily limit and didn't purge at all. I need to conquer this thing.
I feel alone but I think that is for the best. I don't want to miss anyone or anything after I leave. I've said my good-byes and dealt with many of my demons. NYC shouldn't be my savior or my sanctuary. It is a place for me to attend a great school and hang out with great friends. I am surviving and almost thriving here. I will be just fine.
4:46 p.m. - 2011-05-05
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