Lost the 2 pounds of period bloat so I am now at 142. Seems likely I will stay at that weight for a while. Just last year I was 186 and thought I'd never lose weight. Purging, cigarettes and tons of exercise will make those pounds fly off!
Now I am trying not to smoke and doing pretty well I think. I only break down once a week if at all. One cig a week compared to 6 a day is much better.
I am trying not to purge. The last week has been bad but it is every time i get my period. I am endlessly hungry and become more obsessed with my weight because I am a bloated mess.
I am exercising still but that is healthy. Once school is out I will be hitting the gym and doing more fun things.
About to workout for day 5 of this week. So proud of myself! I look and feel better.
Omar is still sniffing around for sex, so looking my best is still important.
Ugh I was randomly thinking of my ex that I wasted over a year of my life on. What a terrible guy. And I also had a weird dream about my coworker that I was madly in-like/lust with. What the fuck. My mind is in overdrive, thinking of all the guys I lost, as I prepare to leave to NYC.
8:23 a.m. - 2011-04-29
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