Still 141 even with the lack of exercise. I guess it's because all I do is work, go to school, do homework, drink wine and take pills to sleep. I'm actually not depressed even with my stress level being so high. Doing well at school helps more than anything. I have a concrete, reachable goal and I am succeeding. Wow iPhone autocorrected that to "suffering" I am not suffering. I am surviving.
Looking forward to nyu but enjoying the days as they come and go. School has replaced weight loss as my favorite obsession. I get my quantitative fix and I'm not hurting myself. I am actually doing really well at work. Getting contracts or being named a finalist. I have to go to work 2 hours early tomorrow at 8 am. I had looked forward to going in late haha. it's a citywide holiday for fiesta but we have to work. My coworkers leave early, come late or don't come at all. Nothing happens to them. But instead of complaining I use my work time to do homework, apply for over jobs and play online. And the printer is free haha. I make good money and have gained a lot of experience. I'll get a better job in NYC cause of this for sure.
I feel more confident than I have in. While. I also feel done with San antonio. done with the job. Done with my apartment, the weather, the people, my things my clothes. I'm done. And ready to start my new life but still use my hard-earned skills.
I know I'm going to be ok. My life is dedicated to learning, growing and helping others fulfill their potential. No one deserves to feel shame or pain if they are not hurting others. I want everyone to be happy.
7:28 p.m. - 2011-04-14
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