I worked 7 AM to 9 PM today. Had to miss class because of work. Missing lcass lowers my grade. if I don't do well in the class I can't transfer back to NYU. My life spirals crazily because of this shit-hole job.
I will aim for a C, with the A I get in my other class I will have a 3.0 average for the semester with the 3.9 I had from before. I could leave with a 3.54. If I can get a C. If I don't get a C I don't get credit anyway so I must get a C so I can leave. Then no summer school. no stress til NYU.
We all had to work late because my dumbass boss pruposely makes me redo shit and is a bitch. Today she finally saw how her little pet fucls up and she just kissed her ass and made me help her redo it. Fucking A.
I won't complain. I will smile and nod and just think of NYC. I WILL get back. If I don't do well in this class I'll take summer school 1 and take an easy class to get an A to balance it out. I have no money or time but NYU is there. They want me and I want them. I will do everything to get there.
My coworker had to help us with our huge work project. When he left he slapped me on the ass. At work.. What the fuck crazy. He was helping me and he said he wouldn't always be there like I was a child he was scolding. He enjoys it when I am flustered and at a loss. One of those people who wants to be the hero. I am my own hero (except for when my mom is my hero.) Now that the stupid bitch is gone he needs my attention. Oh well. I spend my days working and doing homework.
So tired. Drinking because I need it. Depressed because NYU might slip away because work makes me miss class. But not going to give up. Only slept 3 hours lats night. Worked on school stuff. Tossed and turned. Went to work early. More school stuff. And hours and hours and fucking hours of work.
11:02 p.m. - 2011-03-22
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