Random uncontrolled tears. Drunkenness. Anger and then it's just me.
Alone.
Sad.
Angry.
Bitter.
Crazy.
Bulimic.
Borderline.
And satisfied.
I know I will never be sane or normal. I might never be happy (I aim for contentedness as My beloved Sylvia Plath tried to do)
I really do care about my DL buddies.
It's funny. Y'all know much more about me than my IRL friends do.
You know about the bulimia. The cutting. The borderline (used to think it was bipolar disorder). You know about my whorishness, and sorrow. You know about my abortion and my fibroids and my fear that one led to the other.
So many of you have cared enough to leave me notes and ask for my password.
I really have needed this.
So as an FYI I'm reading all your diaries from the beginning. So if you are worried about who is reading every page and every entry. It's me. I want to know the people who I respect.Y'all rock!
Thank you, so very much.
(P.S.. Yeah I'm drunk but I started this entry 5 hours ago. I was just too scared to post it)
(P.P.S. [post, post script] purple guy is also the guy with the girlfriend who moved near me. Weird and confusing right?) ________ Seriously why the fuck is he moving over here? I am so mad and confused and pissed and I hate this shit. This was my happy place. I know him well enough that I know he did it on purpose. He got mad at me today because I did my job and questioned what he did like my boss told me to. He makes me want to hurt myself, Why is he coming here? Why? WHY?
8:42 p.m. - 2011-02-11
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