The cold is making my Internet very temperamental.
I am reading this book called Business Plan for the Body to help re-kickstart my weight loss/health plan. The main thing I have seen is that it says "no" to excuses. I'm not losing weight because I've been cheating. Mind you not enough to gain but enough. Every weekend I go over the number of calories I burn by so much that I spend the rest of the week burning them off. Like I knew that but crunching the numbers really put it into perspective. My BMR is 1455 and with my activity level I am at a little over 2300 cals. I drink close to that many calories in alcohol. Yikes! So I need to not let my weekends be free for alls. I love alcohol so I guess I need to keep it to a set number of hours/give myself an allowance. A glass of wine here and there adds up. And I need to focus on mixing my workouts up so I can have that oh-so-fabulous muscle confusion. I am doing pretty well at that. I have 3 Pilates workouts and 3 yoga workouts plus my 30-day shred. I want to DL one more Pilates and one more Yoga workout and then I am good to go. Plus I go to the gym (when it's not fucking 18 degrees outside. Seriously San Antonio? This is bullshit)
I did the 30-day shred today and really pushed myself. It felt good. The book reminded me how much muscle I have lost since I was 20 and the importance of building it back so I can rev up my metabolism. Plus not smoking is gonna slow down my metabolism too plus increase my appetite. But I'd rather that then a stroke or lung cancer.
My skin is starting to look a bit better. Damn crows feet and scars. Ugh.
Made my breakfast lunch and snack for work. They will probably be gone by 2 PM like always. I need to stop eating so much!
Haven't purged in a week maybe? Maybe less maybe more. I just want to keep it up. I am not tracking my weight and will use weekly comparisons instead of daily ones. i'll still weight everyday because I am crazy but the week-to-week differences are what will actually matter. I must wean myself off of the crazy train haha.
I'm always addicted to something. Right now it appears to be a little bit of exercises (I workout once or twice a day and get depressed if I don't), tracking my spending, and counting calories (not restricting as much as counting every little thing). In the past it's been alcohol (I drank every single day for 3 months straight and then at least 5 days a week for another several months), coke (I was up for 4 days straight during my worst period), smoking, weed, adderrall, b/p, restricting...It's always something. I guess it's better to be addicted to healthier things than unhealthy things. I need something to obsess over at all times.
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