So happy that the Jets fucking lost. I can now go to sleep content.
Took some epsom salt because I feel disgusting from my constant binging. Not smoking can't be blamed for it since I don't actually smoke that much anymore and certainly not when I am sober.
The increased workouts did it for sure. So I will need to start eating huge salads and soup to fill myself up. No more non-filling things like candy and straight cheese. Once I get paid in a week I will buy food that is much better for me. Or I could do it now, I just hate to mess with my budget. Besides a few days of just oatmeal and pasta might do me good. I need to stop feeding the beast inside.
So excited to submit the rest of my application tomorrow. Then I will focus on applying for more side jobs. I am looking at tutoring. I have experience and good test scores and grades. A few hours a week could earn me some NYC money. Once I get my tax refund my NYC savings account will start to become real. By the end of January I will have gotten a lot done: IRA, NYU app, savings, new workout regimen. And I am starting on my resolutions. I kicked Omar to the curb and am finally over my coworker. I am quiting smoking. I need to quit purging too. I think if I start taking Alli again it will motivate me to not puke since those pills are fucking expensive.
Now to go to sleep, drifting away to the sounds of classical music. The melatonin is kicking in. And for the first time in the past year I haven't dreaded the end o the weekend. I look forward to working out in the morning and class and everything.
10:49 p.m. - 2011-01-23
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