No fear.
That's what it all has come donw to. All the planning and working and starving and trying. I need tohave no fear so that I can live my life. i've worked hard to get to a point where I can correct the mistakes I've made in the past 10 years. Moving away from NYC because I was afriad I couldn't make it. Not trying to be a real journalist because I was afraid I'd fail. Ending up almost 200 pounds because I was afraid I'd never reach my goals. Avoiding going after real guys (not loser boys) because I was afraid I'd be rejected.
I've finally gotten back to school to work on my masters, I'm saving to move back to NYC. I asked for a raise which I deserved and got, I'm fixing my credit and getting healthy.
I'm learning to respect myself and not fear being alone. Being alone is better than being belittled or abused.
I have to learn to love myself because I truly believe no one else will until I do. Confidence doesn't have to be arrogance or cockiness.
The goal is to make 2011 the best year yet.
10:39 a.m. - 2010-12-27
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